1. |
Mother Tongue
02:44
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I might be putting words into your mouth
But you died before I could rationally think about this
You first married another Arabic woman
And fate would have it that she died
As soon as the marriage was consumed
You then married my grandmother
A white woman with supposed roots and social standing in the country
That birthed you but also hated who you were
You and your kids, the half-breeds with the arab noses
You all married white and got nose jobs
Your words of comfort were no longer whispered in Arabic but in French
You tried to hide all that the white hegemony hated in you
So your kids and grandkids could live a life free of prejudice
I will never know how to make kibbeh
Or sing those Maronite chants that your mother sang
I will never know how to say thank you
For all you endured and the love you gave us in your mother tongue
You died
Your mother tongue
Has gone unsung
Unable to carry on
An immigration paragon
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2. |
Too High
02:48
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Too high
Too high
Too high
To talk to you
To high too high
Too high to talk to you
You’re such a fucking bummer
Can’t believe I sucked your dick last summer
A total narc
The contrast’s stark
Smoke an ounce with my friends
But one hit in and I’m
Too high
Too high
Too high
To talk to you
To high too high
Too high to talk to you
You’re such a fucking bummer
You think im dumb, well i feel dumber
Don’t wanna bone
Leave me alone
Just smoked a blunt with my friends
I can’t pretend i’m not
Too high
Too high
Too high
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3. |
Uneven Keel
02:04
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I always feel
Uneven keel
People never want me
Face up to reality
I get angry
It’s so scary
I’ve built a crust
I never trust
Hate is what I associate
I can’t mitigate
Never good enough
Friendship is a bluff
I ache and sigh
Drunk and high
It’s never good
It’s never good
You never understood
Isolated, inconsolable
Feel so unlikeable
Love is hard to find
When worry makes you blind
Hate is what I associate
I can’t mitigate
Never good enough
Friendship is a bluff
Love is hard to swallow
When you feel so hollow
Emptiness, nothingness
Existing is a sickness
What can I do?
What can I do?
Every problem leads back to you
But being alone
Is a great unknown
Hate is what I associate
I can’t mitigate
Never good enough
Friendship is a bluff
How can you trust?
Is it love or lust?
I can’t even depend
Always alone in the end
My sense of reality
Does truly hate me
What is it that i feel
When I’m so uneven keel?
Hate is what I associate
I can’t mitigate
Never good enough
Friendship is a bluff
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4. |
A Snake Called Ean
03:00
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Apathy is taking over me
Picking at me like a flea
Can’t move, can’t think
Now, I need a drink
Softness of forgetting
Sweet clouds of numbing
It’s so much harder
To love you than to need you
I can get through the days
It’s the night that weighs
When memories relapse
And barriers collapse
Days full of care
Promises made of air
It’s so much harder
To love you than to need you
I eat lovers
Without care or distinction
You fed an endless hunger
I tore you asunder
You were slaughtered and burned
For a love I could never return
It’s so much harder
To love you than to need you
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5. |
Third Time's The Charm
01:32
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I am Arbus
I am Woolf
I am Plath
But I fail even that
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6. |
Shit Lord
01:16
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Fuck you, you piece of shit
I have better things to do
Than put up with you
You fucked up my mind
I don’t give a fuck
I won’t suck your cock
Not going to answer
Your “hey u up?” any longer
Fuck you, you piece of shit
Think I should be happy
About the attention you’re giving me
I have moved on
I don’t give a fuck
I won’t suck your cock
Not going to answer
Your “hey u up?” any longer
Fuck you, you piece of shit
I should have known better
My emotional labour
Would never be returned
I don’t give a fuck
I won’t suck your cock
Not going to answer
Your “hey u up?” any longer
Fuck you, you piece of shit
You hurt me so bad
I’ve been so mad
Fuck you, you piece of shit
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